Becoming Legal

Today, is my birthday. My NINETEENTH birthday. And although it sounds strange, I feel different. I really do. I've been thinking a lot about my year as an eighteen year old, and even though there were some pretty hard times and situations I had to go through, I know that every one was important and taught me a lesson. I have grown so much this past year, and learned so much about myself. I can not even tell you how far I've come. I would not trade this year for anything. I learned how to live on my own, be independent and stop needing my parents for everything, so much so that I even opted out of going home for the summer. I learned who my friends are, and what being a true friend really means. I learned how to love and care for someone even more then I care for myself, and I learned how to let go when there is nothing else you can do. Already, in the few hours that I've been 19, I have proved to myself that I can be strong, I can do things that I never thought I had it in me to do.
This past year, God has shown me his great mercy, love and compassion. He has brought strong Christian friends into my life, he has given me relationships I would never give up. He is the provider, and I have no idea where my life would be without him.
I still have no idea where I'm going. I don't know what I want to do with my life. But that's the fun of growing up. Yes, sometimes when life seems it's shittiest, you just really want to skip ahead, and figure out why you have to go through the crap that you go through...but that's life.
So my 19th year, I'm going to seek after him, I am going to continue to grow into the person he wants me to be. I am not going to take for granted everything he has done for me. This year, school, relationships, jobs (HAing), is all in His hands.
Because I've already proved, I can't do it alone.