Trusting.

I've been trying to write something that has meaning. Something that other people will read and be like...wow, that's so great. She can really convey what's going on in her head and heart. So I've been sitting, trying to put some brilliance down in words. But I don't think that will be happening today. Today, I'm going to write whatever comes to my head. Whatever I feel at this exact moment. I feel blessed. I haven't felt so at peace for the last little while. I feel like I'm supposed to be here. And I haven't felt that at all this year. I feel like God has a purpose for me. And that is such a good feeling. At times, I feel like I'm still not cutting it. Like when I fail a midterm. But then I think, I really didn't step up like I should/could have. I'm not used to actually having to put a lot of effort into my work. And Now I just need to learn that skill.
Right now. I am so thankful for friends and family. Honestly, I don't know where I would be without them. Especially my mom. I love her so much! She is such an amazing woman of God, and she is just such an encouragement and she challenges me. Some of you, know how much she has been through, and how much our family has been through. And if you don't, maybe someday I'll be able to share a little about that part of my life with you. But over the last little while I have just really come to thank God for such an incredible person he has placed in my life.
And then my friends. Sometimes, since I'm being honest, I feel like I'm so far away from them, like I'm here, but I'm not really a part of things. But I am, and sometimes I just get this feeling of great love for them. Because, God seems to know the exact moment I need a kind word, a hug, encouragement. And He sends my amazing friends to write a facebook message, or just give me that kind word I need.
It's incredible how God puts the right people in your life at the right time. He knows exactly what you need when you need it. He will never let me go. I can't even comprehend the height and depth and enormity of God's Love.

I will Love you. You are MY God.