This blog is coming about because of a series of things and conversations that have been put in my path this week or last couple of weeks. It's partly got to do with Love, and partly got to do with contentment, and how we find ourselves to be content.
I used to think, and not at all consciously, that if was I loved...then I would be content. I'd be happy with my life. If only I was just loved. You see, the thing is, I was looking for contentment in all the wrong places, and when I didn't get it...I got really angry with God, as if He owed me something.
I never fully understood what I was doing to God, or to myself. I was searching so hard for something that I already have. I was looking right past the one who will always always love me. And for one of his daughters to not recognize His love, and for His daughter to think she needs more...that must have hurt. Because I know it hurt me. It's one thing to say to yourself and others that you are completely content with God's love...it's another thing completely to believe it. I think we all go through these trials, unfortunately some of us take a lot longer then others to realize that's what's happening to us.
I now know, I now realize...God's amazing love for me. As I'm beginning to re-realize this (because I think I always knew...I just didn't always KNOW) I'm also starting to notice that I am loved. Sure, I'm single, but that's not all that matters. I have some great friends. And I know they love me. I have parents that I know without a doubt love me.
Love is a funny things. Sometimes, you're expecting it. Sometimes It comes out of no where. There are so many different types of love. And at times I wish there was more then one word in English, because all these loves really are so different. If I could explain the different types, I really would. But I don't even remotely know where to begin. Love is beautiful, Love is Hard, Love Hurts, Love is uplifting, Love is worth fighting for. Love is God. Love is friends. Love is completion. Love is never-ending. Love is knowing, and being known.
So friends, be known. Know. Love, and be Loved.
Rest, in the realization that He is now, and forever. And He is good.
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